delia-pavorum:

bunilicious:

intp-slytherin97:

Go ahead! These are fun 😊

Yes!

Oh, damn, I’d do this. Send away!

I don’t like gushing about The Machine because I’m actually really scared that I’ve screwed up the timeline or something on it, LOL…. I’m pretty low key self-conscious about the fic itself and whether or not people will like it, or whether or not it has flaws.  Especially while writing Chapter Seventeen and now Eighteen.  These have been pivotal chapters that cannot get screwed up.

HOWEVER.  I DO love talking about the writing *process*, and what’s in my mind.  I really love talking about this with other writers, too, because I love learning about what others may do that’s better than what I do, and I also love to impart what I’ve learned in my time doing it as well.

So I would love to play this ask game!!!

Bonded Chapter 28: Sovereign

reyloforcebalance:

The newest chapter to my Reylo fanfic (rated T). If you want to check out the previous chapters, here’s the link to AO3!

Heads up: This is a “no Rey”
chapter. Think of it as Kylo’s version of chapter 19. I don’t plan on doing
this often, but I need to set up some First Order plot and character
development that will be important later in the story. Thank you for reading!

“So,
how bad is it this time?”

General
Meric casts a cool glance to the colonel next to him.

The
portly man sighs as he leans over the meeting table, hollow-eyed and exhausted.

“It could
be worse,” Foss answers. “A third of the explosives malfunctioned, so the mines
aren’t entirely destroyed. Just…” He
grunts. “Mostly.” He sighs again, covering his eyes with a palm.

“Tsk.
Tsk.” The young general shakes his head in feigned commiseration. “How
terrible.” His tone is sympathetic but there’s a glint in his eye. He can
barely contain a smirk as he glances at General Hux seated across from them.

“Yes, it
really is quite a shame.” Hux sits back in his chair, relaxed and impassive, an
arm draped over his lap. “Especially when it could have so easily been
avoided.”

Foss
instantly drops his hand, incredulous.

How?” He demands petulantly. “What could
we possibly do to stop this insanity?
After Apatros, half the Outer Rim scum are prepared to self-destruct. The moment we show up at their doorstep—”

BAM!

He
slams his fist on the table.    

“We
can’t do a damn thing.” He huffs,
exasperated.  

“Not now.”
Meric raises an eyebrow. “But it could have been avoided in the first place.”
Foss turns to the general but Meric just nods to Hux across the table.

“I spoke
to Ren about this months ago.” Hux sits up now, a little fire in his eyes. “I told him this was a possibility, that
the gangs would start to catch on, try to slow us down. I suggested we invade
more systems at once, snuff them out before such a thing occurred to them. But…” He shakes his head ruefully.

Foss
looks down, toying with this alternative in his mind.

“Yes… That
would have better,” he mutters. “But it’s too late for that. All we can do now
is grit our teeth and clean up the mess.” His sighs, defeated, his shoulders
drooping.

“Do
you have a team there yet?” Meric looks over at him.

No.” Foss crosses his arms, disgruntled.
“I’ve got one coming in from Aeneid, but it won’t arrive for another two days.”

Hux
knits his eyebrows, his narrow face pinched in confusion.

“Surely,
there’s something that can be done in
the meantime.” He leans into the table. “What’s the infantry doing? Twiddling
their thumbs?”

“No.” Foss
shakes his head. “The Supreme Leader has them building an operational camp for
the slaves.”

Both
generals immediately scoff, rolling their eyes.

Again?” Meric snorts in disbelief. “What
are we now? A damn charity organization?”

“What a waste,” Hux spits in contempt. “Housing
gutter rats when we could already be digging out the tunnels.”

Suddenly,
the door whirs open and General Kas strides swiftly into the room. He pulls out
a chair, a to-do list written across his face, and wordlessly takes a seat. He
doesn’t acknowledge the others but glares down with furrowed eyebrows, consumed
in thought.

The three
men barely acknowledge the middle-aged man, continuing with their conversation
as though he weren’t there.

“What
is this?” Meric blusters. “The fifth
time he has our troops taking care of riffraff?”

“The
fourth,” Foss supplies eagerly.

“It’s a waste
of our manpower,” Hux growls. “It’s a waste of our time. It’s a waste of our resources.”

“Added to
the fact that he has us rebuilding half the damn galaxy.” Meric sits back in
his chair, his cropped blonde hair gleaming in the light. “Don’t forget that.”
Hux sneers at the reminder.

“At
this rate—”

“Where’s
Voigt?” Kas demands abruptly. Hux twitches, annoyed at the interruption.

“You
know he’s always late.” Meric waves a hand dismissively. Kas sighs, looking
back down.

“Ren’s
running us into the ground with this nonsense,” Hux fumes. “We’re a glorified
mining and construction outfit now. He’s cut our military spending in half. Soon, we’ll barely have an army
left.”

“Well…”
Foss starts tentatively. “That makes sense, doesn’t it? Now that the war’s
over—”

“War is never over.” Hux shoots forward in his
chair, blue eyes cutting. Foss shrinks a bit. “Most of the Outer Rim is still
overrun by gangs, the Resistance is growing more and more every day—”

“Not
that the Supreme Leader’s doing anything about it,” Meric adds caustically.

Exactly.” Hux points at the general.
“They’re a ticking time bomb, and while they’re growing stronger, we’re growing weaker.
Expending resources on foolishness, negotiating with scum…”

“Speaking
of which,” Meric smirks. “Can you believe he let that twitchy little shit sit
in on a Generals’ meeting?”

Don’t remind me.” Hux covers his eyes
with a palm. “It’s unconscionable,”
he spits. “Giving a lower ranked twit high security clearance, letting him be privy
to top secret information. Half the time he’s here, he follows at Ren’s heels
like a dog.”

“The
Supreme Leader’s pet,” Meric mimics sarcastically. “I heard he went down to
visit the boy’s old unit, all the way to the loading decks.”

“Oh,
that’s not the half of it.” Hux practically cuts him off. “He’s added visits to
the lower ranks to his rounds. Our esteemed sovereign, descending to the slums,
consorting with engineers and technicians and supply workers.”

Supply workers?” Foss gapes in
disbelief.

“Can
you imagine if Snoke had done such a thing?” Meric smirks.

“Snoke
would have never even considered
debasing himself in such a manner.” Hux gestures emphatically. “He actually respected
his position, understood that he represented our supremacy, our power, our
authority.” Hux grows angrier with
every word, his nostrils flaring. “The comparison is enough to raise the
question, isn’t it? If Ren is truly fit—”

ENOUGH!

Kas
abruptly slams his fist on the table, and the three men jump, startled. The
older general leans in, eyes fixed on Hux.

“Firstly…”
He cocks his head. “You really should refer to him as the Supreme Leader.” Hux opens his mouth to speak, but Kas cuts him
off.

Secondly…” The general bites. “The First
Order is more powerful now than it
has ever been. Thanks to wise leadership, planets are lining up to negotiate
with us for their resources. We’re tightening our grip over the galaxy’s
economy by the day, and if we’ve recently
had to make a show of benevolence, it’s only been to repair the damage that you did to our negotiating power after
Garos.” At this, Hux’s face turns as red as his hair.

“And that
lower-ranked twit, as you call him, is smarter than half the men at this
table.” Kas raises a mocking eyebrow as Hux seethes.

“Careful
Armitage…” The general continues in a foreboding tone. “If you keep talking
like this, someone might suspect you of attempting to organize a mutiny.”

The
room instantly falls silent.

Foss and
Meric freeze in their seats, too terrified to speak. Only Hux keeps his head
up, maintaining a defiant gaze, his upper lip twitching as Kas stares at him coldly.

Read the rest on Ao3. 

Woot! New chapter!

Tag me and I’ll gladly reblog the heck out of ya!

dragonrebelrose:

reylo in pre-tlj fics

rey: i hope you die choking bitch

kylo: bold of you to assume i give a shit about your opinion

rey: you’re a disgusting monster

kylo: i’m not the one who smells like bantha fodder go take a shower desert rat lol

reylo in tlj

rey: hi ben i’m really upset can we talk for a sec

ben: *runs out of a meeting while tripping over droids to answer forceskype* what happened are you okay are you hurt what can i do

rey: i’ve never felt so alone 😦

ben: *talking through tears* newsflash sweetheart i’ve been here the whole time

rey: *sobbing* i’m gonna hold your hand now

ben: *sobbing harder* o kay

Oh… oh I legit laughed at this truth bomb. Was I supposed to? I feel two things…

supreameleaderhoneypot:

vespaer77:

monsterleadmehome:

orevet:

I just saw a Bad Post that claimed if the original Star War came out today everyone would be super horny for Darth Vader bc he’s like Kylo Ren only badass and not shitty, and haha wouldn’t those crazy shipper types feel super stupid when they’d jumped the gun shipping Vader with Leia and/or Luke, and I just feel like OP of this Bad Post has missed several key points:

  1. people *were* totally horny for Darth Vader from the moment the original Star War came out, you buffoon, you utter imbecile
  2. the whole point of Kylo Ren as a character *within the narrative itself* is that he’s trying and failing to fill Darth Vader’s big stompy boots, and so of course he’s going to be a worse version of Vader than Vader himself is, but this doesn’t actually make him a shitty character, it turns out?
  3. also there was this weird insinuation that part of what makes Kylo Ren a shitty character is that he’s good-looking, and conversely what makes Vader awesome is that he’s Not For Girls
  4. also, y’all know fandom and shipping predate Tumblr by literally decades, right?
  5. people *did* ship Vader with and Luke and Leia from the get-go because there was absolutely zero indication they were related and Tumblr’s weird anti-enemy lovers crusade is a fuckin historical anomaly
  6. did I mention that Carrie Fisher shipped Leia and Vader? because Carrie Fisher totally shipped Leia and Vader. oh noes I guess she’s problematic now
  7. I love the implication that people aren’t completely horny for Vader right now, btw. oh you sweet summer child. when I saw Rogue One half the theater nutted during the Hallway of Death scene

tl; dr people have always been horny for Darth Vader, die mad about it

LMAO

Number Seven is the ABSOLUTE GOSPEL TRUTH.

So, funny story.  I’m in a nerd band.  I play a lot of festivals and conventions all over the midwest with them.  We do a lot of Star Wars material because there’s so much material to work with, and it’s popular.  Sometimes you have to feed your audience what they want, if you also want them to buy a CD where you assert your unpopular opinions about Dumbledore and/or Twilight Sparkle, just sayin’.

So, we network quite a bit when we travel, and we meet a lot of great people.  

Including the guy who played Darth Vader in Rogue One.

Who called me on my home frickin’ phone, along with a very good friend of mine who is an MC, to wish me a speedy recovery the day after I had breast reduction surgery this past summer (which was also my 41st birthday).

I live a VERY weird life.

This is all amazing. @vespaer77 is my personal damn hero. I want to see your band play. Also, I had a huge crush on DV at age 12.

It was AMAZING.  Like, my mom and sister were here, and they were all, “Who’s on the phone?” and I was all, “OMG WHO’S ON THE PHONE!!!!!”

And we think we’re funny =)  We have a song called Life on the Death Star that’s pretty great.  But Sunset on Alderaan is my favorite Star Wars tune.  It’s short but sweet, and I think we’re remastering it in the studio soon.

ReyloWriMo Update 11/27/2018

supreameleaderhoneypot:

vespaer77:

Hit the 24,000 word mark tonight on Chapter Eighteen.  Slow but steady.  Still hoping to hit the 30K soft cap by the end of the week.  

95% of the 8K words in this chapter so far are ALL Kylo Ren.  This is the longest I’ve spent on his POV, and it wasn’t intentional.  I meant to spend a little time focusing on the plot, with Poe and Finn and Maz.  And I meant to write at least half of this dialogue through Rey’s eyes, but I really wanted to give their budding feelings the authenticity they deserved because I truly believe the enemies-to-lovers trope is a very difficult one to pull off in a manner that feels “real” to the reader, especially given the context of these characters and their motivations.

I felt that Rey’s POV was too close to the reader’s POV, and ultimately felt too much like speculation, or too much like author injection.  Like fangirly fan service, lol.  And this fic is ready to move past speculation.  So I’m writing what it’s like to develop romantic feelings from the POV of an absolutely terrified male.  One who has already been spurned by this woman once before by his own shamefully woeful lack of… tact, lol.  

And it’s as fitting as it is fascinating.  The move toward a deeper, more intimate connection is being told through the POV of someone who battles obvious mental illness.  It’s being told through the POV of someone who is a survivor of abuse.  

It’s being told through the POV of someone who battles crippling anxiety.  Which is good, because I am feeling an absolute shit ton of anxiety about writing this fic’s first real glimpse into finally changing the relationship between these two characters into something deeper and more romantic.  This can really go only one of two ways – cheesy and wrong…. or right on the nose.  There’s a lot of pressure here to swing and not miss – to get the tone right, to keep the pace slow and cautious – so it’s like a self-fulfilling prophecy.  I’m anxiously writing anxiety… with anxiety.

Sweet baby sarlaccs I hope you guys  like it……….

You smut writers make it look so easy, lol……….

Ironically, as I sat down to write this, it was my cat, not my kids that interrupted me.

Stand by as I was thinking this out while doing dishes. This is very stream of consciousness.

I was thinking about this post by @vespaer77 and our brief conversation about Kylo Ren’s character and the difficulty in writing him as (the way I perceive) his authentic character. It hit me that one of the reasons I very much identify with him is the way he buttons up his feelings, and takes all criticism out on himself. I very much do the same. I am a smart and strong person BUT I am not a good advocate for myself. I have anxiety, and depression but I hide it well enough. But inside… Things build, I take it all out on myself and eventually I may smash my own proverbial helmet, but then it’s back to work.

I imagine, behind the scenes, Kylo Ren takes on a big workload, without complaint. Probably too much to manage plus he’s constantly trying to please his Master, to prove himself. That’s a huge emotional load. Any “failure” is personally devastating. No wonder he has outbursts of rage. He’s frightened of failing the highest authority of the Supreme Leader. So what does he do but get rid of that authority. Still it leaves him with the only person he’ll always fail to please, himself.

(and now baby Ren has interrupted me by wanting to be fed)

So where am I…. Oh I have a fic I’ve worked on. It’s partly written out, partly running through my head. I started it when I was very I’ll earlier this year. I really pulled from that place of sickness and vulnerability. I’m well now and I don’t know if mentally I can go back to it. Maybe this fic will never get finished or even be read by anyone. I was really keen on it to start but when I go back to read it it seems just cathartic and sorta tortuous.

Anyway, the real point is that I had difficulty making Kylo Ren do or say anything. It was feeling like the other characters were dancing around him. He’s stoic, reserved with his dialogue and his actions but like he’s just waiting for permission from someone else to feel and act. And there I am again.

There’s the end of the ramble. Maybe it will ring true with more people than just myself.

OOOOMG @supreameleaderhoneypot – this is so beautiful!!!!  Two things that were SPOT ON for me:

1) The permission to feel and act.  this feels soooo authentic and real from a character who’s lived a lifetime of abuse.  A product of infantilization, and invalidation.  ON THE NOSE.

2) What you said about reserved dialogue.  This one hit the hardest.  This is PRECISELY the way I write him too.  And not just because he’s currently a prisoner in my fic, lol.  When he speaks, other characters take notice.  Or even grow quiet.

But one of the things I noticed about how he was written on screen is that his dialogue is very clipped.  He’s efficient with his words.  He says more with less.  But his sentences are usually very short and utilitarian on screen.  I think that’s part of why we take away from him what we do.  He comes across as a character that very much lives inside his own head – that’s how he’s portrayed through his language.  I’m glad I’m not the only one who got that impression. 

Also, I’m DYING to read what you wrote!  I don’t suffer from these things, so I gather great insight from writers who do.  Plus?  You should feel that your voice is valid =)